Change...

Spare change, pocket change, loose change. Life is all about change, the adventures, challenges, and trials along the way are all helping us to adapt and change ourselves into the one person we want to become. We choose the type of individual we will be, by how we react to the circumstances around us. Sometimes the choices are extremely hard, and hurt, and break you to the point when you feel you can't go on, but I have found with a little faith, tons of prayers, and some much needed patience Heavenly Father will bless you in imacculate ways so long as you are willing to work for it! I am so grateful for the changes that have occured to shape me and my life that I may some day become half of what I can, and that one day through the many blessings I have recieved be able to give back to everyone in life who has helped me along the way. My family, my dear friends, and the ones who mean the absolute most!

Little Miss

Little Miss I give up...have you ever heard a song that just fits? This is my life in a song! I am trying so hard, I feel like I've put my all into a goal worth chasing to have it handed back to me time and time again. "Little miss do your best, little miss never rest..."
I hate this I hate feeling like time and time again everything I am working for is failing, like I don't know what I'm doing like every single person that ever said I couldn't was right... "Little miss I give up, Little miss I'll get tough don't you worry 'bout me anymore...''
I wanna help I wanna do the right thing. I know in my heart this is something worth fighting for. Something to work and push and run towards with every last breath that I have, but somedays every voice that ever said I couldn't comes back and knocks me down and makes my world stop.

"Little miss you'll go far, little miss hide your scars. Little miss who you are is so much more then you like to talk about...sometimes you gotta loose til you win!"

...I'm trying...

Almost There

Life is so full of it's ups and downs twists and turns. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing...if I've made the right choice...if I'm screwing it all up. Sometimes I feel like I'm being pulled in 50 million directions, like every single person is expecting an answer from me, and while I may be trying my best I can never reach the goal. Life was never meant to be easy, we've known that all along. It was never meant to be fair either on the days when life seems to be kicking my butt. When every turn I make leads to an exploded door barracaded off. The one thing I have found that gets me through is looking at the things I am grateful for in this life. My loving family, my friends, my faith, the people who truly believe in me. The beauty of this world all around me, the fact that I was born with limbs, eyes, nose, ears, and all my body parts in tact. I love life, and the adventure it is!