So last weekend I was able to go camping with Amy and Cindy and Cindy's family! We spent the entire weekend up in the mountains riding horses everyday, swing dancing at night, playing on fourwheelers, and in general just having a blast! It was such an amazing camping trip!!! While we were there we went on gorgeous trail rides and got to see some truly amazing sites. The feeling of being up in the mountains far away from everyone and everything, playing in the water with Rubia, looping cowboy back to camp! I have officially become 100% addicted to horses! There is such a freedom riding through the beautiful mountainside being able to be out in the middle of no where just you and your horse and focus on what's really important in life!
...And then you come back to the real world...
So this isn't meant to be some complaining about boys most in general are pretty decent, but I and the girls I know seem to meet the rare exceptions to these decent one's ;) hence the reason so many girls are deciding to give up and be done haha for example the week before I went camping I found out from some friends...
That one guy stops talking to you cause you won't make out with him, another continuously asks you on dates and to do things and then 5 mins before hand bails out, another asks you to be his girlfriend on the first date and then wants you to meet his family a day later, another plays games and messes with your head.
Then there are the great one's, they call exactly when they say they will, they are always on time for dates or just hanging out, they truly want to get to know you not just know what they can get from you. They are the one's we all hold out for the one who is going to treat you with all the respect and loyalty you deserve. The problem is distinguishing between the two...and then it gets even more complicated when half the people you know say you should date someone, some say follow your heart (which that may be the one thing you can't do) others try to tell you not to rush to grow up, while more try to tell you just simply how to run your life! I'm done being told what I can and cannot do, I'm sick of wishing for the perfect guy, I'm sick of being told how to handle my life. That I don't get out enough, I work too much, I have too much pressure on me, etc.
Sorry I had to vent somewhere...and I haven't written on here for a while! Life is great I enjoy every aspect of what I do, I feel like I am actually accomplishing things, and most importantly I am able to help out a lot of kids and families who don't have much better if that means sacrificing a little right now I am prepared to do so, I know this is the right thing, right now, and I know that I couldn't have made it even close to this without the help and encouragement of those around me, and the love and strength they give me, I'm so very grateful for that knowledge and the knowledge of this gospel, and the strength it gives me to make it through the harder times in life! :)
"Life is a book in volumes three, the past, the present, the yet to be. The first is finished and layed away, the second we're reading day by day, the third and the last of the volumes three is locked away -God keeps the key!"
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
"You're in my dash"
I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning...to the end.
He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears.
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the DASH between those years
For that DASH represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not, how much we own,
The cars...the house...the cash,
What matters is How we Live and Love
And how we Spend our DASH!
So think about this long and hard...
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough...
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special DASH
Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy's being read
Wtih your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spend your DASH?...
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning...to the end.
He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears.
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the DASH between those years
For that DASH represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not, how much we own,
The cars...the house...the cash,
What matters is How we Live and Love
And how we Spend our DASH!
So think about this long and hard...
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough...
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile...
Remembering that this special DASH
Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy's being read
Wtih your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spend your DASH?...
Our Deepest Fear...
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful
beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small
does not serve the World.
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is
within us.
It is not just some of us;
it is in everyone.
And as we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence
automatically liberates others."
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful
beyond measure.
It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you NOT to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small
does not serve the World.
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is
within us.
It is not just some of us;
it is in everyone.
And as we let our own Light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence
automatically liberates others."
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Thank YOU
So I can't sleep...I am so grateful for the people in my life! For the examples they set for me and the strength they are! I can't believe some of the things they have been through, and how they can still do anything and everything in their power to make life better for someone else!
Thanks for being such a great friend, and example to me in your life. You were someone who I was able to get close to, and someone I was able to care about a lot, you were example to me and everyone in my family and all the lives that you touched around you! Your friendly, caring, fun loving attitude was something that touched every person you came in contact with! My family loved and loves that our families were able to be so close and we were so lucky to have you in our lives for the time that we did! You were a strength to all of us...THANK YOU!
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Today, Today, TodayToday, Today, Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday
Someday, Someday
Thanks for being such a great friend, and example to me in your life. You were someone who I was able to get close to, and someone I was able to care about a lot, you were example to me and everyone in my family and all the lives that you touched around you! Your friendly, caring, fun loving attitude was something that touched every person you came in contact with! My family loved and loves that our families were able to be so close and we were so lucky to have you in our lives for the time that we did! You were a strength to all of us...THANK YOU!
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Today, Today, TodayToday, Today, Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday
Someday, Someday
Sunday, January 4, 2009
New Year, New look...
So now that the New Year is officially here...I didn't make any resolution's or anything like that! But I am making one now...I went riding today again with Cindy and oh my gosh it was AMAZING I got to accidentally trot bare back and got to be out in the open freshly snow covered field just me and Dancer and the sun was shining GORGEOUSLY bright this morning it was amazing and while I was riding I was thinking about this past year about the things I have learned, the trials I have been through, the ways I have been able to grow, and the life I have been blessed enough to been given a chance at. Well after my ride I had my cousin's baptism today and during that I was able to think more about my baptism and the things I have learned since. And I am so grateful for all the blessing's I have in my life!
It hasn't been the easiest road, I have made some stupid mistakes, I have hurt some of the people I care about the most in this world. I haven't always listened I have been stubborn and wanted to do things my way. Or things to work how they are supposed to...according to my book...but I have learned that's not how it goes. I have been given so many oppurtunities in life, I have had so many chances and I have learned so much, but I'm still learning and still trying I have a lot left to do to grow up and to reach the point I want to be at in life! So this year I'm going to do the best I can to be the person I want to become! And to help those around me! "This is my one big chance and I'm gonna take it twice With the past down below, I know love lifted me up here So I'll take a breath, kiss the sky, toll the bell cause it's a Brand New Year!"
It hasn't been the easiest road, I have made some stupid mistakes, I have hurt some of the people I care about the most in this world. I haven't always listened I have been stubborn and wanted to do things my way. Or things to work how they are supposed to...according to my book...but I have learned that's not how it goes. I have been given so many oppurtunities in life, I have had so many chances and I have learned so much, but I'm still learning and still trying I have a lot left to do to grow up and to reach the point I want to be at in life! So this year I'm going to do the best I can to be the person I want to become! And to help those around me! "This is my one big chance and I'm gonna take it twice With the past down below, I know love lifted me up here So I'll take a breath, kiss the sky, toll the bell cause it's a Brand New Year!"
Monday, December 29, 2008
"My Revolution"
Since it's almost New Year's this song is again one of my favorites!!! And this year I really am going to make this my goal "to live, to love today, cause it's a brand new year!!!"
Learning to turn the outside inside out
Having the courage to find what life is all about
Loving so purely can surely melt a frozen heart
Knowing sometimes all over's the perfect place to start
Welcome to my revolution
Lucky you, lucky me maybe were meant to be
This is my one resolution and I make it with no fear
To live, to love today!
'Cause it's a brand new year
Seeing the world through rose-colored eyes
Yeah, this is my one big chance and I'm gonna take it twice
With the past down below, I know love lifted me up here
So I'll take a breath, kiss the sky, toll the bell
'Cause it's a brand new year
Resiliently reclaiming me
Refining my recovery
Untwist my fate, unlock the gate
Let's make a little noise
'Cause it's a brand new year
Oh, welcome to my revolution
Welcome to my revolution, baby, yeah Lucky you, lucky me maybe were meant to be
This is my one resolution and I make it with no fear
It's never been so clear
Second chance is what got me here
To live, to love today
'Cause it's a brand new year
Lucky you, lucky me'Cause it's a brand new year
Learning to turn the outside inside out
Having the courage to find what life is all about
Loving so purely can surely melt a frozen heart
Knowing sometimes all over's the perfect place to start
Welcome to my revolution
Lucky you, lucky me maybe were meant to be
This is my one resolution and I make it with no fear
To live, to love today!
'Cause it's a brand new year
Seeing the world through rose-colored eyes
Yeah, this is my one big chance and I'm gonna take it twice
With the past down below, I know love lifted me up here
So I'll take a breath, kiss the sky, toll the bell
'Cause it's a brand new year
Resiliently reclaiming me
Refining my recovery
Untwist my fate, unlock the gate
Let's make a little noise
'Cause it's a brand new year
Oh, welcome to my revolution
Welcome to my revolution, baby, yeah Lucky you, lucky me maybe were meant to be
This is my one resolution and I make it with no fear
It's never been so clear
Second chance is what got me here
To live, to love today
'Cause it's a brand new year
Lucky you, lucky me'Cause it's a brand new year
Sunday, December 28, 2008
...Just peachy...
What a weekend haha oh man so I love it...I finally got my life figured out, I'm the girl who is the best friend around to give the dating advice to the guys (which girls love so much heads up ;) haha) and then I've screwed up my families lives so much now which is also just great. I wish there was a way that I could fix all the dumb problems I have created, I wish there was a way I could apologise to everyone I've hurt, a way to fix all the things I've ruined/broken. I guess this is my way of venting, sorry it's not meant to be a pitty me thing (if anyone reads this) just know it is my way to get everything off my chest and to think through it all...
...I don't know what to do anymore...
I am so grateful for this gospel in my life, for the love of my Savior and Heavenly Father. I know this church is true. I am so lucky to have been blessed to have been born in this dispensation in which the fullness of the gospel is restored to the earth and I am blessed to have been born into a family who is sealed together for all time and eternity. And I am blessed to have so many friends around me who support and care and who are strong examples to me in my life. And for having the comfort and guidance of the Holy Ghost, and for the power of prayer and being able to have direct and personal conversation's with our Father above.
...I don't have multiple personalities heads up there was a good 2 hours between not knowing what to do and the second part of this, I actually wasn't even going to post it, but I keep feeling like I should share it because of how strongly I feel!
...I don't know what to do anymore...
I am so grateful for this gospel in my life, for the love of my Savior and Heavenly Father. I know this church is true. I am so lucky to have been blessed to have been born in this dispensation in which the fullness of the gospel is restored to the earth and I am blessed to have been born into a family who is sealed together for all time and eternity. And I am blessed to have so many friends around me who support and care and who are strong examples to me in my life. And for having the comfort and guidance of the Holy Ghost, and for the power of prayer and being able to have direct and personal conversation's with our Father above.
...I don't have multiple personalities heads up there was a good 2 hours between not knowing what to do and the second part of this, I actually wasn't even going to post it, but I keep feeling like I should share it because of how strongly I feel!
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