Ramblings...

So it's been an odd week, sorry this is more just for me than anyone else, but I have no time to write it all down and I am waiting for computer stuff to load, and if there is anyone out there who can explain to me why guys do these sorts of things that would be helpful...

I don't know I feel like I should be like a lot more upset right now than I am. But mostly I'm just confused cause I tried my hardest and I had my answer and I was going for it and life seemed to be working in an odd, twisted sort of way and then Sunday everything fell apart.

Basically long story short the first guy I had ever gone beyond being "just friends" with ended our friendship and everything else that was going on between us...but he couldn't even have enough guts to talk to me on the phone or in person. And honestly I was going to do something similar so it's not like it was un-expected that's why I think I'm not so much hurt that it happened, but the part that does hurt is at least I was planning on talking with him face to face. To me an email just kinda proves that he never really cared all that much, and yeah grant it he is far away, and we weren't officially together, but he could have at least called...

So basically in a nut shell guys if you ever ever ever care about someone at all, DON'T USE A COMPUTER, OR PHONE TO TELL SOMEONE HOW YOUR FEELING, OR AS A BASIS FOR YOUR RELATIONSHIP, you just come across as an insensitive jerk!

Side note, I'm honestly ok with everything, except for the fact that now we can't even be friends...I don't understand why people can't maintain a friendship...